In: Psychology
Olaudah Equiano
Introduction
Olaudah Equiano was a West African who had been sold into slavery
and transported across the Atlantic Ocean to a new life of
servitude. In the New World, Equiano converted to Christianity and
learned to read and write. Ultimately, he was able to secure his
freedom and moved to London where he wrote and published an account
of his life as a slave. Equiano's memoir is a rare piece of
evidence providing us with the views of an enslaved West
African.
Questions to Consider
•Why did Equiano say he would have preferred death to continued
existence on the slave ship?
• How did Equiano find himself is such a terrible predicament? Did
he seem to hold any grudge against his original captors?
Source
The first object which saluted my eyes when I arrived on the coast
was the sea, and a slave ship, which was then riding at anchor, and
waiting for its cargo. These filled me with astonishment, which was
soon converted into terror, which I am yet at a loss to describe
nor the then feelings of my mind. When I was carried on board I was
immediately handled, and tossed up, to see if I were sound by some
of the crew; and I was now persuaded that I had got into a world of
bad spirits, and that they were going to kill me. Their complexions
too differing so much from ours, their long hair, and the language
they spoke, which was very different from any I had ever heard,
united to confirm me in this belief. Indeed, such were the horrors
of my views and fears at the moment, that, if ten thousand worlds
had been my own, I would have parted with them all to have
exchanged my condition with that of the meanest slave in my own
country. When I looked around the ship too, and saw a large furnace
or copper boiling, and a multitude of black people of every
description chained together, every one of their countenances
expressing dejection and sorrow, I no longer doubted of my fate;
and, quite overpowered with horror and anguish, I fell motionless
on the deck and fainted. When I recovered a little, I found some
black people about me, who, I believed were some of those who
brought me on board, and had been receiving their pay; they talked
to me in order to cheer me, but all in vain. I asked them if we
were not to be eaten by those white men with horrible looks, red
faces, and long hair? They told me I was not; and one of the crew
brought me a small portion of spirituous liquor in a wine glass;
but, being afraid of him, I would not take it out of his hand. One
of the blacks therefore took it from him, and gave it to me, and I
took a little down my palate, which, instead of reviving me, as
they thought it would, threw me into the greatest consternation at
the strange feeling it produced, having never tasted any such
liquor before. Soon after this, the blacks who brought me on board
went off, and left me abandoned to despair. I now saw myself
deprived of any chance of returning to my native country, or even
the least glimpse of hope of gaining the shore, which I now
considered as friendly; and I even wished for my former slavery, in
preference to my present situation, which was filled with horrors
of every kind, still heightened by my ignorance of what I was to
undergo. I was not long suffered to indulge my grief; I was soon
put down under the decks, and there I received such a salutation in
my nostrils as I had never experienced in my life; so that, with
the loathsomeness of the stench, and crying together, I became so
sick and low that I was not able to eat, nor had I the least desire
to taste any thing. I now wished for the last friend, Death, to
relieve me; but soon, to my grief, two of the white men offered me
eatables; and, on my refusing to eat, one of them held me fast by
the hands, and laid me across, I think, the windlass, and tied my
feet, while the other flogged me severely....
Source: The Interesting Narrative of the Life of Olaudah Equiano (London: 1793), in David Northrup, ed., The Atlantic Slave Trade (Lexington, Mass.: D. C. Heath, 1994) 77-78.
Note: This response is in UK English, please paste the response to MS Word and you should be able to spot discrepancies easily. You may elaborate the answer based on personal views or your classwork if necessary.
(Answer) (1) Equiano was sold to a slave cargo where he began to be overwhelmed by great fear, anxiety and the worst thoughts that a nervous man could possibly have. He even imagined that the white man might eat him. He was overcome with grief as he knows that whatever his fate held, would not be a hopeful one. While he was on the deck and looking at the shore, he wished to go back home. However, upon fainting and being taken to the lower decks, the stench of it all made him momentarily forget the topics of his worry and imagined that even death would be better than these living conditions.
The slaves were cramped into the lower decks by the hundreds with no place to move, eat or sleep. Furthermore, they were to use the same area to feed themselves and defecate. This made the conditions so gruesome that Equiano said that he would even welcome death as an alternative.
(2) Equiano was too worried when he was on the ship to hold a grudge for too long. He did not particularly like the men who sold him to the trade and was saddened after he was even given a drink by them that seemed to have worsened his sick feelings.
Equiano seemed to shock by what he saw on the upper deck of the ships. He was afraid that the white men were barbaric and cannibalistic. Furthermore, the look of sorrow on the faces of his fellow slaves made him realise that his fate would be a worrisome one.
Equiano was later taken to the lower decks, the ghastly hygiene of the place where the slaves were stuffed, it made him contemplate death. All of these emotions seemed to be weighing on Equiano too heavily for him to give vengeance and grudges too much thought. Furthermore, Equiano seemed too worried about the future to focus too much on what has already happened.